It's 2014 now.
I've gone through so many things and my past has made me who I am today. But surprisingly, I feel myself become more defending. I defend myself for everything. Friendship, love and more. Think from the bright side, I might get stronger because of this? Idk.
In 2012 years, I've graduated from Diploma in Architecture in Polipd, but currently I'm pursuing for Bachelor of Landscape Architecture in UTM. At first I was so struggling because this is not my interest, but in the end I accepted the offer. I was so tension, depressed with the surrounding. The people, the projects, the circumstances. Is quite hard to endure it. Some people here would do whatever just to get their own benefits. Some people are tend to be nice with you but you never knew they are talking your bad behind you. Some people are just used you for other reasons. And yet the management here are so disappointing as the way how they treat the direct intake students. The subjects cannot be transferred, couldn't guarantee when can graduated even the offer letter has mentioned the period (an act to cheat the direct intake students), everything courses need to arrange your own and even you have to plan your own subject to register for the whole study. I fight for my own, went to see the Head of Faculty trying to solve the problems but being kicked off from office not even 1 minute. You can see that the people who is high up there are looking us like a dog. The image created seems friendly and helpful are just fake.
But fortunately, I tend to meet many people who really helpful and fight for me as well. Especially my Head of Department, sit for a meeting with those higher position people just to solve my problems. And now I was fully adapt the life here. I get a single room to stay by my own coz' I like to be alone. I get the chance went to Tokyo to learn their culture and in the meantime widen my thought not only in landscape architecture but also the every story behind their life. I get use with the people who like to compete, just treat them as no one. I help those who needed, although sometimes not been appreciated but as long as they don't hurt you from behind then is fair enough. I faced the truth that might extend for one or more semester because of the poor management. Well everything seems settled down for now. And good news is I've found my interest in this field.
The Resource and Planning studio for this semester, has really thought me alot. It makes me believe the power of cooperation as a team, and this is the time where I really get to know what is landscape to me. I was exposed to the cultural perspective, I see everything as a cultural value. I tend to fall in love with heritage, the indigenous people and their knowledge, the story behind every walls and more. I learn to love culture. Really appreciate for this studio as I only get to realised what I want in my life. Landscape is not just about a damn tree, but also how the people interact with this ground and forming their own culture. Well I think I would love to work for conservation and preservation of the heritage, in future.
I think I could get the chance to intern in Shanghai for next semester but I have change my mind for the last minute. So in the end I choose to intern in my hometown, at least I could spend my Chinese New Year with friends and family. However yesterday only I email the company my resume and portfolio, so is still a question mark whether I get the place or not @@ However I've marked almost 120 places or cafe for me to explore in Penang XD
Okay enough for the campus life. Talk about others. Hmm I think I have become a shopaholic after I came here. Not sure is a good news or bad news haha. I found that in these recent months I owned about 12 new clothes, 4 new bags, 2 pairs of new shoes and 2 new watches. OMG I've never been so crazy like this. Guess that depression makes me wanna spend more hehe. And I love junk food especially this semester. Even I went Japan also I spent most on junk food. Started to miss those days in Japan , except for the time that working on studio project there.
Well I think is time to stop here~ Still got one last exam then I could get back my hometown. Anyone who see this post feel free to invite me go yam cha in Penang. I would love to. Thanks hehe =)
